I can hardly believe the time that passes at the speed it does now.

It was over a year already since I took my holiday to Japan, traveling all over the place.

It's been almost a year (11 months) since I moved here to Fukuoka.

It's been 5 months since I started my new job.

I'll be 30 years old this month!!!


Time is going fast-it really is. I'm constantly busy. I work six days a week and there is a grocery store length list of things I do everyday. The thing that I'm focusing on the most everyday is studying Japanese language. Since I work and I don't believe in paying really to learn a language, most of my free time I'm making effort to study. Almost every little free moment I read, listen, write something in Japanese. I have a stack of books, Rosetta Stone, Apps on my Ipod Touch, Podcasts, anything and everything I can do I'm trying to learn a little more when I can. Why am I making such a huge effort? Well first of all, I plan to live in Japan the rest of my life...that's reason enough really I think but also because if I am to learn the language, especially self study, I know it's going to take a' lot of time and effort to become moderately fluent in only a couple years. I'm also tired of not understanding or not being able to speak my mind to the majority of people I know here. I'd also like to make more friends and I know that's really only possible if I can speak Japanese to them since they're very unlikely to care to learn English.

Anyway, so that's my major time consumer, studying Japanese. I'm also trying to exercise everyday. I feel much better in general when I'm in good shape. The thing that's really been bugging me lately is my lack of creative outlet-in other words art. I do this too often. I'll be really into drawing and stuff and then something will happen and I'll stop drawing completely. Then when enough time passes I get this feeling that won't go away that I really want to draw again and then I do and the circle continues. It seems I can never really stick with drawing...if I did I can only imagine how much better I would be. I can't think too much about that though since it's pointless to regret. It's really just a minor hobby I suppose. 3D Animation was supposed to be not just a hobby but also a career...that's pretty much nonexistent as well...

So I'm back again to this spot trying to draw and be creative again regularly. I picked up a pencil and pad today and in between teaching classes here I made a little sketch from my head. That's pretty rare for me to do since I have little confidence in my free thought drawing. I usually reference something and draw from there. Something happened this time though that I forgot even happens. When I just draw and I'm not thinking about how to draw or conciously making an effort...then I can draw pretty good and this time I did it even without any reference. I just was in what I can only describe as "fuck it" mode. I don't care I'm just drawing and that's it. I'm gonna try to keep replicating that feeling of just getting in the zone and not really trying so hard to concentrate on drawing...just put the pencil on the pad and do it. It's also a helluva lot more fun that way and that's the point of doing it.


Long enough Journal Entry I think for now. (^^)